Um, yeah

[evildrem]

I am alive. Just. Work sucks and I see a change in employment in my future. Other stuff is also making me insane and un-fannish so bear with me please people.

Some of you know or have heard me speak about my american friend Emilie. I just found out she has breast cancer. She has had two operations to remove the tumor and they think this time they have got it all. She starts radiation treatment in a month's time. I think that is for about 5-6 weeks. Maybe more. To say I'm shocked is an understatement. Emilie is a year younger then me and possibly on the healthiest people I know. Never drank, never smoked, eats well, etc etc etc. She and her husband are two of the genuinely most lovely people I know. You know the type, people who make you a better person when you are with them.

Emilie is very upbeat about everything and I am going out to see her in San Francisco when the radiation treatment is done. She and her husband were trying for child as well. It's all so fucking unfair!

So yeah. Not exactly in the best of moods at the moment. The Ex and I are not exactly rubbing along well together at the moment either. I may have to resort to physical violence very soon.

Mainlining Magnificent Seven fanfic is the only thing keeping me vaguely sane and approachable. ITV keep fucking about with showing the episodes though. I wonder if they realise how dangerous it is to screw about with junkie's fix?

I do have very lovely shiny purple toenails at the moment though!

Comments

[bebetter.livejournal.com]

Em, all I can say is that I'm sure Emilie gets a lot of strength from your friendship with her, and never underestimate how powerful a gift that is for someone in her situation. Sadly, that fucking disease always seems to hit the nicest people, and it doesn't have all that strong a link with lifestyle (though it certainly does affect it - if she's that young, it might even be genetic more than anything else, which sucks.) I really hope the treatment goes well for her.

As for the job, well - good luck. Big hairy bats with nails in for the ex !

[darkwitchmoon.livejournal.com]

Oh Em!!!
*HUGS*
ooo pretty colour!

[ariestess]

*hugs* Sending good vibes along for you and your friend....

[pat-t.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry to hear about your friend. Cancer is such a blood sucking disease. And I agree with the other comment. At her age, it is probably genetic. There is nothing she could have done to prevent it. I hope, for her sake, that it isn't estrogen postivie though. If it is, she would be risking her life trying to have a child. Much love to you. I know you are very worried.

As for the ex - well, there are very personally rewarding means of torture. And, boy, can I just imagine those purple toenails *g*

P.S I think the job change thing is contagious. It seems to be going around

[beeej.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry that so many things are sucking for you right now. It seems to be a pattern with a lot of people at the moment. Here's hoping things improve, and soon.

Am still grinning about your purple toenails. :)

[pattyfeidt.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry to hear about Emilie. My thoughts and prayers are with her and her husband. A positive outlook is very important and since she seems to live a very healthy life style she could very well come out of this fine. My friend did.

As for the toenails hmmm pics would be interesting =0)

[cyberducks.livejournal.com]

I don't believe there is anything your friend could have done differently. Breast cancer is almost always genetic. The good news is, they put her on radiation treatments, not chemo - which indicates it didn't spread into the lymphnodes. So, her prognosis is pretty good.

A collegue of mine was diagnosed with it at 29, and she was put on chemo right away, because hers had spread already. Unfortunately, it's now in her bones.

[eternaldark.livejournal.com]

*Hugs*

Mmmm purple ;)

[dswdiane.livejournal.com]

Oh, Em, I am so very sorry about your friend. My deepest and warmest sympathies to both you and her and her family. If it is any consolation to you at all, I have had about ten friends and patients who have successfully survived breast cancer for over ten years. I've not yet had one friend or acquaintance who has had it and died, although I admit I have a friend who had a friend who died of it about ten years ago.

I can understand how worried you are and how distraught. My very best friend of 37 years, my best friend since I was 13 years old, had a disease more lethal than breast cancer. She had something called Common Variable Immune Defiency Disorder. It was a lot like AIDS with some weird differences which I will eventually write about in my LJ. Anyway, to make a long story short, she went into a coma for four months about five years ago and then came out of it. And then two years ago, she died on June 1. I spent years worrying about her. But we said all our goodbyes and I was there when she died.

I will miss her forever, but I will always treasure the relationship that we had.

I hope that your friend gets good treatment, survives, is cured, and gets to have the child that she wants.

My thoughts are with you.

And good luck on changing your job.

[elistaire.livejournal.com]

{{hugs}}

I know things are tough right now, and all my thoughts go out to you and your friend and her family.

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[kats-lair.livejournal.com]

Awww Em! I am so very sorry to hear about Emilie. She is a lovely lady; I enjoyed meeting her. Sending positive vibes her way. Your support and strength will be tremendous help.

[lasultrix.livejournal.com]

Yikes. Catching up on LJ after a busy week; just saw this. God, I'm sorry.